“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times….” That for me summarises my experience of being in Trot group. The experience was enlightening, it was a kind of apprenticeship where you develop an analysis and a critique of the world from a Marxist perspective. Developing a technique in how to think for yourself but not thinking for yourself. And that was downer, looking back…hindsight is such a luxury! Following a line, imbued with the sense of Leninism and party discipline. And I really believed in it all, it encompassed my whole personal and political landscape. I believed in the one day overthrow of the capitalist system. From the age 16 onwards until I was around 26 I felt part of something, something identifiable, something I believed in. Something which shared a collective spirit in fighting and campaigning for a better life. I still define myself as a Marxist sympathetic to Trotskyism but I wouldn’t touch another Trot grouping with a six-foot barge pole, maybe that sounds rigid and fixed in my thinking but I have been unbelievably burnt before, yes you learn by your experiences and that’s why I wouldn’t make the same mistake twice. I suppose what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger but if I could go back in a Tardis and visit my 16 year old self I would inevitably say, ‘Don’t do it’! But hey, it was the ‘best of times, it was the worst of times’…
And what has made me think of this are the ructions in the SWP. The revolutionary left has endured years of splits and fusions, sometimes healthy and unhealthy. But over the years I am starting to believe that the revolutionary left is stuck in a dead-end, forever damned into that dead-end. Why? Because the political culture of these groupings. The central structure based on democratic centralism, it is a dead-end (and I have argued this countless times). It doesn’t build healthy pluralist free-thinking organisations it creates dogmatic degenerating bad for the political soul places where a small group of people are given immense power. Oh, and don’t forget to hand over 10% or so of your hard earned case to keep the party going (you may as well chuck it down a drain for what good it does!) Plus don’t forget to sell the propaganda (to this day I detest paper selling… smacks of desperation).
Too much power is given to the leaderships, cult of the leader situations and top-down education. Fortunately the group I was in at least encouraged tendencies and factions. In the case of the SWP, I believe that the likes of Lindsey German is a victim of her own political and cynical methods.
The conceit and arrogance shown believing their grouping is the true inheritor of the Bolshevik Party. It is utterly distasteful along with the patronising recruitment speeches I have encountered over the years and why I should join their merry brand of Trotskyism, and the desperation of paper selling. The whole recruitment technique has the whiff of the Jehovah Witnesses about it….but without the organised religion. I wrote a couple of years ago for the F Word about my experiences of being a woman in the revolutionary left and I still stand by it.
The biggest shame that so many groups shaft their own members, foot soldiers for the revolution, who have been willing to put the energy and time into building the movement, it is like you are treated contempt. I thought it was about comradeship and solidarity but it is case of being chewed up and spat out like you don’t matter. Dehumanised and devalued.
The leaders of Trot groups put their own personal ambitions first while subordinating the class struggle. Here’s me thinking that it’s all about building for the struggle not about the personal ambitions of the ‘leaders’. And all these underhand methods and behaviour discredit the whole left further ghettoising the ideas of revolutionary Marxism ending up in a dead-end. But then that’s the thing, there’s so many problems with the conduct, internal politics, culture and behaviour of the revolutionary left that damage and scar dynamic and vibrant people. I have seen it countless times over the years. Laughable really considering we are the alternatives to capitalism. If the revolutionary left is to heave itself out of the quagmire, stymied by its own conceit, then the point is about changing its political internal dynamics if not then in the political scheme of things it will mean to nothing.
Links: Anna Chen’s excellent A Bad Case of the Trots
On the SWP: Exit stage left, What German’s resignation tell us, SWP split: what now?, Splits in the Judean Peoples Front